“I can’t love anyone, I gave my heart away a long time ago, and I never really got it back.” Today went suprisingly well, I managed to have a good time and keep busy. I did lots of thinking though, which never leads to good things. I foudn myself in a banter about Doug and David (309). Realisticly it’s all a bunch of hog wash, but a boy can dream right?
David seemed like a thing of the past, out of sight out of mind maybe? But then last night I was roller blading and I saw him with Aubrie going to smoke. Something in me came unhinged, something i thought i had sealed up. Everything i liked about David hit me 10 fold and instantly i was enthralled by him once more. He had on this ridiculous tight tie-dy t-shirt and his goofy grin. His eyes nailed me like a lightening bolt, that saphire shine coming out of them. I am such a fucking loser.
I wrote Doug an e-mail today, it was enthusiastically questioning where the hell he is exactly. I am so afraid something is gonna happen, but i don’t wanna get all spazzed about it, so i am trying my best to keep it to myself.
Shellby (my little sister) will be making her BSU debut tomorrow, and though she doesn’t reallyknow much about my life or who i am, i have a feeling she’ll fit right in.
My shout out for the night goes out to Julie and Chelsea. I saw them today and it totally cheered me up. I still can’t believe that so many people cared that i left B/C. Anyhow, Thanks for being so awesome, funny and beautiful Julie and Chel!!!
I guess the rant is about over, esspecially since nothing cool has happened lately. Hopefulyl i will more to write soon.