It’s not anger at all. I am not mad. I’m just devastated. It hurts and it’s just not fair. I know I haven’t experienced a whole lot when it comes to long relationships, but this has all been far too painful. I don’t think I want to have to experience such feelings again. What makes it worse is that everytime I think I’m getting over it someone will ask me how it’s going with him. And it just makes me think about it and miss him. I have never missed someone so much. I know I should be writing about something positive, my new apartment, developments at work, anything. but this is all I can think about right now.