Accidental Lover

by The Damnwells

It’s been days, months, and years since your tongue-tied, not so awful,
Got me high, left me dry.
I was cold, driving tears, of the double yellow bloodlines.
Where I tried, and I lied.

I’ll be your accidental man,
You be my circumstantial lover.
I’m here to ruin all your plans,
I’m here to steal you from your mother.
I’ll be your accidental man,
You be my worst kept secret.
I’ll come and take you by the hand.
But you take it on and keep it.

Go and say what you will,
All these French words seem to fail you every time.
Get online, Kiss my cheek, Ring my ear.
Every weakness, I’ll be with you.
You’re so fine,
You’re not mine.

I’ll be your accidental man,
You be my circumstantial lover.
I’m here to ruin all your plans,
I’m here to steal you from your mother.
I’ll be your accidental man,
You be my worst kept secret.
I’ll come and take you by the hand.
But you can take it on and keep it.

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   On December 11th 2005, I tallied my total count of comic books at 3,032.  (as detailed in an old Xanga)  I’ll spare you the numbers in breakdown this time, but as of today the total number has increased to 3,913.  Almost 4,000 comics.  That’s an increase of 881 comic books.  That’s 2.41 comics every single day.  With the average price of a comic being around 2.99 that means I spend approximately $7.25 a day on comics.   I have never been more proud.

On where I’ve been

        It’s true.  I do have a drinking problem, and I don’t really know what to do about it.  I mean, I don’t get mean or out of control, I just drink almost every day of my life.  If I’m not drinking one night, I am either working or doing something else mind altering.  It’s just easier I guess to escape to that numbness and not have to be me.  I am poor, I am tired, I am lonely, and I feel like I’ve failed in a lot of ways.  I have let people down by just waiting tables and bartending, and I know people say things behind my back about it all.  I am not naieve.  I am not embarassed by what I do for a living, I just know there is more for me out there and I am not putting in my all to find it.  Instead I’ve been drinking.  A lot.  I have 26 beers in the course of 7 hours last night, taking one hour off to participate in other activities.  It was insanity.

       In other news,  I am still pathetically single and alone.  I don’t even like considering dating cause it’s always a dissappointing painful ordeal.  I know you can’t just have a perfect relationship out of nowhere, but come on.  My friend Brittney says I am too picky about who I will date.  I think that’s crap because I don’t always go for the best looking people or anything, I just go for individuals who have a personality.  I did talk to Zach the other night for a few hours.  He made the comment that I would probably write about it in my blog.  I guess he was right.  He knows I am still madly in love with him, it’s all just a joke to him though.  I should know better then to even call him anymore.  It’s just a no win situation.

       The comic book collection is going well.  Led Zeppelin is still everywhere in my life.  Things with Patrick have been going better and all in all I am pretty much the same person, when you catch me not being drunk.  Or maybe I’m not the same.  I don’t know.  I’m depressed.