They are remaking American Gladiators!  I am pretty sure that’s the show that made me gay in the first place.

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Public Apology

and I can’t do this anymore
I have no faith in myself
I’ve squandered all of my wealth
put my soul on the shelf
and I walked out the door.

I can’t do this anymore
I have scared all my friends
I’m clinging to my next of kin
wondering  when it will end
and I am constantly bored

I’m singing, slowly, too myself tonight
I’m breathing, only, for my health and I

want to find the things I used to adore
want to be the things that I’m needed for
want to fight for everything that I love
want to be  there if you want me to come
want to heal all the damage I’ve done
I apologize to everyone

and I won’t do this anymore
I’m spending all that I have
drinking’, boozing, binging, yeah
hazy sequences of  laughs
and then it all goes to black

I’m singing, slowly, too myself tonight
I’m breathing, only, for my health and I

want to find the things I used to adore
want to be the things that I’m needed for
want to fight for everything that I love
want to be  there if you want me to come
want to heal all the damage I’ve done
I apologize to everyone

I’m pulling myself in to see what’s left of me
I’m looking for a chance, to just sit down scream
I need to let this go, please take this layer off of me
I’m finding I’m not indestructible, I can finally see

want to find the things I used to adore
want to be the things that I’m needed for
want to fight for everything that I love
want to be  there if you want me to come
want to heal all the damage I’ve done
I apologize to everyone

   I’ve been seeing previews for this new film coming out called the Golden Compass.  It has a talking Polar Bear played by Ian McKellan which makes it a must see in my book.  I figured I should get a little background though and discovered it’s part of a series of books which some claim have an aethisitic (sp?) agenda.  Having not read the books, I don’t know, but why does that matter.  Anyway, I wiki’d the movie and found this controversy.

“Several key themes of the novels, the rejection of organized religion and the abuse of power in a fictionalized Catholic Church, are to be diluted in the adaptation. Director Weitz said “in the books the Magisterium is a version of the Catholic Church gone wildly astray from its roots” but that the organization portrayed in his film would not directly match that of Pullman’s books. Instead, the Magisterium will represent all dogmatic organizations.[32] Weitz said that New Line Cinema had feared the story’s anti-religious themes would make the film financially unviable in the US, and so religion and God will not be referenced directly. Attempting to reassure fans of the novels, Weitz said that religion would instead appear in euphemistic terms, yet the decision has been attacked by some fans,[33] anti-censorship groups, and the National Secular Society (of which Pullman is an honorary associate), which said “they are taking the heart out of it, losing the point of it, castrating it”,[34] “this is part of a long-term problem over freedom of speech.” The changes from the novel have been present since Tom Stoppard‘s rejected version of the script,[23] and Pullman himself believes the film will be “faithful.”[32]

As part of a two-month protest campaign, the Catholic League has called for a boycott of the film. It believes that while the religious elements of the film will be “watered down” from the source novels, the film will still encourage children to read the series, which League president William A. Donohue claims “denigrates Christianity” and promotes “atheism for kids”,[5][35] citing author Pullman as saying that he is “trying to undermine the basis of Christian belief.”[36] The League hopes that “the film [will fail] to meet box office expectations and that [Pullman’s] books attract few buyers.”[37] The call for a boycott has resulted in action by some Catholic groups in the US and Canada, and a school board in Ontario has ordered the source novel removed from its library shelves. Pullman has since said that the books do not have a religious agenda, saying of Donahue’s call for a boycott, “Why don’t we trust readers? Why don’t we trust filmgoers? Oh, it causes me to shake my head with sorrow that such nitwits could be loose in the world.”[38] Other evangelical groups, such as The Christian Film and Television Commission, are adopting a “wait-and-see” approach to the film before deciding upon any action,[39] as is the Roman Catholic Church in Britain.[38]

Why are these people afraid of letting children know about different beliefs? It’s just disgusting.  Let your children think for themselves, be their own person.  If they find the same god as you, great, if not, that’s their choice.  What matters is that you love your kids and they love you.  And your a good family with values and an understanding of the world around you.  Not what religion you believe in.  At least not to me.

So, I’ve just purchased a ticket to go see Led Zeppelin: The Song Remains the Same at Kerasotes Showplace 16.  the film is pretty cool and the music of course is amazing, but seeing it in a theatre is something that I absolutely can’t pass up.  Anyway, plans right now are to go with my friend Ashley who works at the RC with me.  Her boyfriends going too, so I’m hunting down a 4th person so i’m not a thrid wheel.  Anyone want to see it?  It’s $12.00 and it’s at 8:00pm on Tuesday Nov. 27th.

Some quick blurbs….

– While watching TV the other day, a commerical came on about a hospital.  A nurse talked for a minute about a little boy who was sick with…leukemia I think, I can’t recall, but then it goes on to show the parents of the child talking about how relieved they were because of the amazing service at the hospital.  They reference the kids name, which I can’t remember either, and talk about how he was comfortable and happy his whole stay in the hospital.  They never tell you what happened to the kid though.  After tugging at heart strings, the commercial says, “If you’d like to hear the rest of (insert dying kids name here)’s story, and find out the outcome of his case, visit randomwebsite.org .  That’s just sick.  A commerical using a dying child as bait to get you on their website.  ugh.

– Further more, the healthcare world is becoming more and more about marketing.  I recieved a letter from my local dentist in the mail the other day.  At first I was sure it was some old bill I had overlooked, but upon opening I was just as horrified.  The letter said something to the effect of, “Mr.Moschell, it occured to us that your Dental Plan through MetLife still covers $1,300.00 in dental visits.  Please take advantage of your insurance and get what you’ve paid for.  This is followed by a list of cosmetic dental surgeries, including a special sale on Sonic Blast teeth Whitening for only $245 (reg. $425).  Since when does the dentist need to advertise that aggressivly?

– The holidays are coming up and I am very excited.  My mom asked me for a Christmas List the other day and it made me chuckle.  She still makes me feel like a little kid around this time of year.  It’s marvelous.

– This Thanksgiving will be the oddest one ever.   My Mom and Dad will be visiting some arbitrary relative on my Dad’s side while my sisters and I will be at my Mom’s brothers.  I don’t think I’ve ever spent a Thanksgiving without them.  It’s kind of upsetting, but my only alternative is to go with them and that’s not happening.  Who hangs out with relatives whose names are “Junior” and “Sis”.  Sad.

– I have worn a shirt and tie to work every day this week.  We don’t have a dress code in my office, so everyone acts so lazy about dressing.  It’s always sweatshirts and polos arond the office.  I wanted to step it up and make the others look bad, so I dressed nicely.  I got lots of compliments and now I have added ties and shirts to my previously mentioned Christmas list.

– I think I have a new obsession, crush, entering the picture.  This should be full of angst and drama I’m sure.

That’s all I got.  Later.

      So I’m heading home from the bar last night and I think to myself, a late night snack before bed is what I need.  I pull into a Rally’s and order two cheeseburgers plain and a fry.  I am glad fast food places stay open later, it just gives drunk people something to sober up with.  Anyway, I pay the lady and continue driving home.  I can’t resist the smell of the cheese burgers so I open one up and scarf down on it.  Somethings not right though.  I take another bite and I can feel it.  Slimey.  Juicy, Gross!  My eyes tear up, I am barely paying attention to the road and I know I am going to puke.  I open the car window and think, no, this won’t work.  I open the whole door while driving and spit out the food.  A PICKLE!  I hate pickles!  And I almost died because of one.