Outer Space

Why can’t I feel my sorrow
even that’s gone today
who’d have thought I’d miss
a feeling I could never shake
I wonder what’s broken
inside of me or in you
I’m looking’ for nothing
finding too much to swim through

so reach out and grab me quickly
cause I’m floating away
it’s a current that’s carrying me to outer space
I could use the silence
But I hate to be alone
so reach out and grab me quickly
give me some place that’s home

If you rang my doorbell
would I just sit there
ignoring your offer
to come and take care of me
I daydream of nightmares
cause I know they’re real
seems pointless to dream of dreams
there not what they seem

so reach out and grab me quickly
cause I’m floating away
it’s a current that’s carrying me to outer space
I could use the silence
But I hate to be alone
so reach out and grab me quickly
give me some place that’s home

I’m talking to my reflection
he has little left to say
we disagree on everything

I hate Birthdays.  They are another reminder that people aren’t what you need them to be.  Then again, I am not what anyone needs either.  It’s not hard to express dissappointment, so I do it a lot.  Perhaps I have a higher standard.  Perhaps I enjoy misery, somewhat masochistic.  I don’t know.  I wish I could still right songs, but I don’t have anything to say anymore.  My life constantly brings me the same feelings.  Shame, dissappointment and confusion.  I need to smile more.